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i didn’t dare . . .
By Lesle | March 31, 2009
close my eyes, for fear I would fall fast asleep.
But this morning, after I dropped the kids off at school . . . I had to take some time to myself. I sat in silence at the park and ride for 10 minutes, just listening to the quiet.
The view outside my window was gloomy. It matched my mood.
From the moment she woke this morning Emy found every excuse she could to justify pitching a fit. She spared no expense today, she gave me her all: yelling, tears, sobbing, throwing herself on the ground, screaming that she hated me and that she wanted another mommy, insisting that she could not control herself. All over . . . well, hell . . . I’m not sure what it was all about.
:sigh:
I told her she was entitled to be upset, even if none of us, including her, knew why. She could cry even . . . but she must keep moving forward, she must finished getting dressed and brush her teeth and put her shoes on. And there can be no screaming.
Cue the piercing shrieks, and a thud as she threw herself on the floor. I love how she follows directions. LOL
We made it out the door only a couple minutes behind, so I wasn’t upset . . . until the howling started outside. I had to grab her ear to make her move forward. Threatening to remove her earrings because, ‘babies don’t get to wear earrings’. That didn’t silence her, but it did get her moving towards the car.
Yes, eventually I lost it . . . after more screeching in the car . . . I hollered at her. I hate yelling at the kids. Truly hate it. I’m loud enough as it is . . . as some of you have experienced . . . I’m on a whole different level when I’m upset and yelling. Trust me, you don’t want to see it. And I don’t want my kids to see it either. But it happens.
I’m not sure what the point of it is . . . I guess yelling is a release valve, because it certainly doesn’t calm the situation. It only causes more distress.
:sigh:
I’m anxious to get home now, so I can give her a hug.
L
Topics: Emy, This and That |
March 31st, 2009 at 3:37 pm
well, been there, i fear that the older they get (little girls) the more i want to dig a hole and crawl in it….hugs! been there and still do it wekly
April 1st, 2009 at 5:50 pm
Ah yes, I know exactly how you feel. Hugs.
April 1st, 2009 at 8:55 pm
Been there, done that! Sometimes when I lose it, it is hard to tell who is being the bigger baby!!
April 2nd, 2009 at 9:03 am
:/ ::hugs:: I can only imagine how unpleasant that all was. I hope your day brightens up.
April 4th, 2009 at 7:06 am
aww Lesle Im sorry you had a bad day - I hope things looked up since